Once Again

Inspirations, ideas and more ideas come to me all at once but I can never and will never have the time and strength to make them all come to life.

Since the start of script writing class I was bent and told myself one day I want to write a script from scratch and see it come to life. The story will revolve around the idea of romance and a cafe. I'm a sucker for romance, it's not a surprise I want a to produce a film like that. To have the setting in a cafe has always been something on my bucket list and definitely a place I picture to be with my partner, looking at him and falling in love all over and over again. 

Nothing fancy. 

No long love messages, no hugs, no kisses. Just talks over coffee. 

I was definitely also fascinated by the whole idea behind strangers. The term strangers, ask ourselves, ask yourself, how would you define it?

Haven't it struck you before and thought to yourself how beautiful and absolutely amazing it is that one day we'll meet this stranger along the way, thinks he is such a cutie, become friends, slowly falls in love, might or might not get together? Possibly get your heart broken, then start all over again? The only thing then holding the both of you away from the term strangers are the memories you created and forged together.

Will you then take or give the chances again?

How many times have you pushed away the chances life presents you? Or how many times have you decided that you will not give someone a chance to show you how they feel about you? How would things have been different if you opened yourself and accepted such possibilities, take and give the chances and make the best out of it?

When things don't turn out the way after trying over and over again, at least what's left are memories not regrets. There again then there will be times we feel inferior, we think we aren't worthy of everything. 

Definitely for me as well, there were times, in fact many times I was in confusion because I ask myself if I was worthy of everything, if things I did were right.

Am I allowed to think this way?

Am I allowed to feel like that?

Do I deserve what I'm receiving. 

I tell myself the answer is no. 

Is it ok I look back at the memories and smile thinking of that particular person?

Is it ok I think of you sometimes?

Is it ok I miss you sometimes?

Is it ok even for you to cross my mind?

Is it ok then for me to look at your from afar and hope you're doing fine?

I tell myself the answer is no, it's not ok. It's never ok. 

Is it too much to ask for?

When I ask to have someone there to hold and reassure me when I'm in doubt?

When I ask nothing but a simple meal with you?

When I ask for the both of us to spend saturday together chilling on the couch watching your favourite movie even when it'll bore me to tears. 

When I ask that you really don't have to 24/7 there, just promise to be when I need you?

When I ask for the both of us to be sitting in front of the game console playing games. I'll pretend to get mad because you won again?

When I ask for you to open yourself so I can understand you better?

When I ask that you accompany me on shopping trips, waiting outside dressing rooms and telling me if I look good in the pink dress?

When I ask for you to sacrifice your sleep so we can catch the sunrise?

When I ask you pull me into your embrace even when I said to leave me alone?

When I ask for you to pretend to be surprised at my surprises because i'm bad at them?

When I ask when we squabble and bicker, promise we'll not let it last more than a day? 

Or just when I ask for you to allow me to cross your mind once in a while. 

It's so simple, such little things that mean a lot. We all want a fairytale love story. We want to date with the intention of never splitting up. 

Let's start from the beginning all over again shall we? Enjoy the process of meeting, the happiness, the heart flutters and falling in love. Be willing to give the chance and be brave to take the chance life presents you. We never know what will happen if we don't try. 

In the end, you don't want to be left with the regrets for the chances you didn't take. Do you?

Love is such a beautiful thing. It's also frustrating and definitely confusing isn't it? It's strange how it makes your heart flutter but also makes your heart ache. One moment you feel like you're up in the clouds, all happy and excited. Then, the next moment you can be angry, upset and disappointed. How is absolutely amazing and probably also one of the hardest things in life?

Am I just purely in love with love?  Because it's just less tiring than falling in love with someone.

Then I tell myself I probably just am.

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Here's 'Once Again' by the Paper Plane Productions. We hope you like it as much as we had fun filming it. 

Featuring:

Danielle as Vanessa
Yong as Nathaniel 

Synopsis:

Two ordinary strangers, a café, some coffee and an accidental prank. Fate brings Nathaniel and Vanessa from strangers to something more than friends.

Sometimes the only difference between friends, lovers and strangers are the memories we hold on to.

After two years, will they still let fate decide once again?

Do we always take the chances fate gives us?