Will I do the same?

Having Choco has changed me in many many many ways and very often, i'd like to think of these changes as something positive. He has indeed changed many things, the way i react, my fears and most definitely how i see life.

Ever since this little one joined our family one year ago, I knew there were things that aren't going to be the same anymore. Every decision we make, we have to consider the fact we have a puppy at home. One the biggest change ever since his arrival was the fact that i'm no longer afraid of dogs. The fact that  I love dogs more than anything else. Overcoming my fear of dogs has never been easy. I never thought this day would arrive, where I get to hold a dog in my arms, receive his unconditional love and very wet kisses, falling asleep next to him or just even being able to walk him on a leash.

So back to the question and the main point of the whole post - Will I do the same?
I've been reading shelter stories, dog stories, putting dogs down, etc.
And I ask myself. If one day puppy falls very very ill, will I decide to put him down?

I'd have tears welling up in my eyes because i know i fear that day. I'm afraid. I'm scared. Really.

But my answer as of now?
Maybe, probably.

I used to think putting your dog down is a very selfish act and shld never be a legal thing to do. This, i only mean sick and dying dogs. OTHER THAN THAT MENTIONED, YES EUTHANASIA FOR DOGS OR ANY ANIMALS IN THAT MATTER OF FACT SHLD BE ILLEGAL (FULLSTOP)
How can you bear to put your dog down to sleep when you've spent so many years together. Knowing the very next day, he won't be there to greet you good morning, he won't be there to greet you at the door? My heart aches. And it aches very badly.

But now, I guess it's the only thing an owner would do for the one family member they love so dearly right. It takes a stronger person make such a decision isn't it?

Because the day you decide the bring him home, call him and regard him as your family member, is the day you promise to provide nothing but the best for the little one. You'd shower him with all the love and take care of him with all your heart.
Read this list of ten promises:

You'll hate to see him suffer, so you'll do whatever you can to take that suffering away from him. 

Please don't get me wrong. Choco is a very healthy dog and just turned two. Ok, maybe other than his rashes, he is a good boy and definitely growing up well. It's just that when i stumble across articles related, i like putting myself into thoughts and think how exactly would i react if i were in their shoes. 

I will be volunteering for SOSD flagday this year and i'm very happy to be back volunteering and doing something meaningful. It'll be on the 9th of oct (Sun) around orchard area, so do donate if you see people with SOSD tin cans ok!!! A little help can go a long way! :)

Grandma's Birthday

Was out for dinner last week as an advance birthday celebration for grams. Advance because cousin will be taking his o'levels this week. Speaking of that, I still can't believe it's been two years now since I sat for mine. All the midnight mugging and memorising and dying cause i know i'll do badly for math and every other things. Definitely not something i want to go through all over again. But in all seriousness, o'levels isn't that bad... 

I side tracked a bit too much. 

Now back here, dinner was Jumbo @ Changi resort. I finally found an occasion to pull out my stripe maxi and wear it. I can't even remember when i bought it, definitely sometime back already. 

Dinner was alright. Nothing really special, seafood, fish, crab, noodles. Yea.

6 of us only because sis is in london. I was being a very good sister, sending her pictures of out dinner. You're welcome sis. :) (i'm kidding, she wanted to kill me cause she wants crab too. Go and eat your fish and chips bye)

I can't wait for sis to be back so we can all head out for outings like USS and singing and movies and eating. And school is reopening in two days time. What on earth really. How did time flew by this quickly... When is the next holiday again? 

Once Again

Inspirations, ideas and more ideas come to me all at once but I can never and will never have the time and strength to make them all come to life.

Since the start of script writing class I was bent and told myself one day I want to write a script from scratch and see it come to life. The story will revolve around the idea of romance and a cafe. I'm a sucker for romance, it's not a surprise I want a to produce a film like that. To have the setting in a cafe has always been something on my bucket list and definitely a place I picture to be with my partner, looking at him and falling in love all over and over again. 

Nothing fancy. 

No long love messages, no hugs, no kisses. Just talks over coffee. 

I was definitely also fascinated by the whole idea behind strangers. The term strangers, ask ourselves, ask yourself, how would you define it?

Haven't it struck you before and thought to yourself how beautiful and absolutely amazing it is that one day we'll meet this stranger along the way, thinks he is such a cutie, become friends, slowly falls in love, might or might not get together? Possibly get your heart broken, then start all over again? The only thing then holding the both of you away from the term strangers are the memories you created and forged together.

Will you then take or give the chances again?

How many times have you pushed away the chances life presents you? Or how many times have you decided that you will not give someone a chance to show you how they feel about you? How would things have been different if you opened yourself and accepted such possibilities, take and give the chances and make the best out of it?

When things don't turn out the way after trying over and over again, at least what's left are memories not regrets. There again then there will be times we feel inferior, we think we aren't worthy of everything. 

Definitely for me as well, there were times, in fact many times I was in confusion because I ask myself if I was worthy of everything, if things I did were right.

Am I allowed to think this way?

Am I allowed to feel like that?

Do I deserve what I'm receiving. 

I tell myself the answer is no. 

Is it ok I look back at the memories and smile thinking of that particular person?

Is it ok I think of you sometimes?

Is it ok I miss you sometimes?

Is it ok even for you to cross my mind?

Is it ok then for me to look at your from afar and hope you're doing fine?

I tell myself the answer is no, it's not ok. It's never ok. 

Is it too much to ask for?

When I ask to have someone there to hold and reassure me when I'm in doubt?

When I ask nothing but a simple meal with you?

When I ask for the both of us to spend saturday together chilling on the couch watching your favourite movie even when it'll bore me to tears. 

When I ask that you really don't have to 24/7 there, just promise to be when I need you?

When I ask for the both of us to be sitting in front of the game console playing games. I'll pretend to get mad because you won again?

When I ask for you to open yourself so I can understand you better?

When I ask that you accompany me on shopping trips, waiting outside dressing rooms and telling me if I look good in the pink dress?

When I ask for you to sacrifice your sleep so we can catch the sunrise?

When I ask you pull me into your embrace even when I said to leave me alone?

When I ask for you to pretend to be surprised at my surprises because i'm bad at them?

When I ask when we squabble and bicker, promise we'll not let it last more than a day? 

Or just when I ask for you to allow me to cross your mind once in a while. 

It's so simple, such little things that mean a lot. We all want a fairytale love story. We want to date with the intention of never splitting up. 

Let's start from the beginning all over again shall we? Enjoy the process of meeting, the happiness, the heart flutters and falling in love. Be willing to give the chance and be brave to take the chance life presents you. We never know what will happen if we don't try. 

In the end, you don't want to be left with the regrets for the chances you didn't take. Do you?

Love is such a beautiful thing. It's also frustrating and definitely confusing isn't it? It's strange how it makes your heart flutter but also makes your heart ache. One moment you feel like you're up in the clouds, all happy and excited. Then, the next moment you can be angry, upset and disappointed. How is absolutely amazing and probably also one of the hardest things in life?

Am I just purely in love with love?  Because it's just less tiring than falling in love with someone.

Then I tell myself I probably just am.

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Here's 'Once Again' by the Paper Plane Productions. We hope you like it as much as we had fun filming it. 

Featuring:

Danielle as Vanessa
Yong as Nathaniel 

Synopsis:

Two ordinary strangers, a café, some coffee and an accidental prank. Fate brings Nathaniel and Vanessa from strangers to something more than friends.

Sometimes the only difference between friends, lovers and strangers are the memories we hold on to.

After two years, will they still let fate decide once again?

Do we always take the chances fate gives us?