This place is starting to feel like a place i stop by when my heart feels exceptionally heavy. It haven't for a while now. I am happy, really happy then sometimes, I do feel like the world hates me. I feel like everyone and everything is against me. Just a (very very very) negative nancy.
Sitting in my 'posts' section are a lot of draft writings that never get to see light just because I don't handle distraction well. I'll get distracted or just decides to settle my own emotions then and there without having to post a long ass rant about it.
Not sure if this is what growing up feels like, but somehow, I'm not looking forward. You know when you're 12, you just wanna be 16, then 21? I'm 20 and I hope time stops. I hope people don't grow old, problems don't always surface, life just goes on, happy go lucky. But that isn't going to be the case and I'm fully aware of that.
At the end of the day at least i'm reassured and find peace in knowing that we'll grow out of that. That, one day, problems i used to go crazy about won't bother me a single bit or questions I never found an answer to will find a way themselves. It's cool, I'll be okay!
